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Today I finished the draft of Xsardis. Each novel that I have written takes on a unique personality (not its content necessarily; but it and my’s interaction). Issym was like a child-hood friend. Always there for you; constant; fun. After a while you might grow out of it, but there will always be a special place in your heart for it. Asandra was what I envision a dating relationship to be like. It mattered so much to me but I couldn’t tell if it would come out brilliantly or fall flat on its face. There was a lot of tears and laughter (mostly tears). Now for Xsardis it might be a little early for me to peg its nature, but I can tell you it and my’s interaction was VERY different. Our friendship started off wildly than fell apart. I was stuck in the relationship but I didn’t want to be. There would be days when I would remember why I loved him, then weeks I loathed the very mention of his name. And it took me a very long time to complete the manuscript.

Part of the problem, I believe, was that I was failing where I told all young authors to make sure they succeeded. There are three parts to a great story. (1) A beginning and an ending (who needs the middle? that’s what inspiration is for!) (2) Two main characters (can be hero and villain, two heroes, whatever) and (3) A moral. The moral is key. It gives direction to everything. It is like a compass. Without it, a map will do you no good. I had a moral for Xsardis, but not until late in the novel and I didn’t like it. (The other part of the problem has simply been my health has not allowed much room for creativity but let’s forget about that one for now.)

Today Xsardis shared with me the moral that he (and yes, it became a he today too) really had. It is the perfect moral to sum up and end my series. It is so right, so perfect, it must have come from Above. My sister Kate asked me during one of our many kitchen-table discussions about writing what note I wanted to leave the series on. I guessed at an answer, but she really got me thinking. I prayed today that God would give me a story to consumer my thoughts and chase away the nightmare that was haunting me. He gave me the moral that has inspired this deep appreciation for Xsardis that I never thought I could have.

So I finished the draft today. I know there is a lot of work ahead of me (especially considering I am going to try to fit summer school in and there is another upcoming book under Rebirth’s logo; more about that later), but I am so happy. I love Xsardis for the first time ever! I think you will too.

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